I’ve had some hard situations arise in my life the past week and the weight of it was seemingly unbearable. I write to live and I live to write,which truly is my saving grace at times. Last night I tried to go to church but when I got inside (after driving around for 30 minutes), I just couldn’t stay. My godfather who was murdered, was a Christian and we attended the same church, so knowing he will never come was a bit much. However, this morning while praying and just curling up in Gods lap, I realized my issue….UNFORGIVENESS.
I hadn’t forgave the individuals who took my godfathers life, I hadn’t forgave the negative people surrounding the situation. I hadn’t forgave a lot of folks. As I began to say the names of people and what I forgive them for doing, I began to feel a cloud/weight come off of me. I have allowed God to change my heart and give me strength. Grief is still there but the heaviness I had been under is gone.
I know everyone who reads my blogs is not a Christian but I want to say this….
If I didn’t know Jesus Christ the son of the living God, my life would be in shambles. That relationship has given me strength when I was weak,healing when I was hurting, and joy when I had sorrow.
Thank you for your support and more than anything, for your prayers.
Beautiful Black Cat